How the world would have been if....

It was time to tuck my 5 year old son under the blanket after a goodnight kiss. His eyes were wide open and he was perceivably absent minded in his 'hmm' responses to my pep talk. Sensing his mind was racing with thoughts, I paused and put my hand on his head and messed up his hair a bit to get his attention. He was quite. I slowly asked him - 'what are you thinking Vishu?'. His attention was still wandering in the silent woods. I was getting curious now, a bit bordering on a real concern. I again asked him, what was he thinking. His response came very quietly - 'Nothing Daddy'. But I knew there is something bothering him very deeply for he is not a kid of question-shy nature. I persisted with my patented 'father-son' talk and he finally came out with his question in a very quite, matter-of-fact way - 'Daddy, I am thinking how this world would have been if I was not born in it. Do you know?'. For once, I had no response for his question. I was overwhelmed with mixed feelings - should I feel happy for him that his thoughts are so deep for his age and he is understanding the true meaning of life - for all its glory how transient it is. Or should I feel sad that he may lose his innocence about life sooner than needed, resulting in ??

Its been almost 3 years since that goodnight kiss, he still amuses me with his out-of-the-world questions. He is every bit a headache like any 8 year old boy but also a darling of his parents.

My perspective about life.....

Living in the Moment

In Life,
There are plenty of things that matter
Plenty there are that do not matter.

If for you,
All that matters in life actually matters
And all that doesn't, actually doesn't
Then you are actually living in the moment.

And if for you,
All that matters in life, doesn't
And all that doesn't, does
You are completely lost
-Vengeance against the Spirit!

But if you,
Pick those that matter to you to matter and
Pick not them that don't matter to matter
- From all the matters in life -
You are living YOUR Life.

And,
Life is never custom made for us
But it offers choices - matters to matter and not matter
And we choose - unwillingly and willingly
And that's who we become in Life.

MSri
(I wrote this to a friend of mine sometime in Jul 2008)

First One

Well, here is the beginning. After many months of mental laziness finally I have decided to create my blogspot. And the challenge is to make myself write regularly on topics that matter and interesting. Hopefully in the process, I will be able to catch most of the transient thoughts that fly by and define a definitive shape to those unknown ideas in which I involuntarily invest incredible mind hours.
As my wife always says.....'it's always a new beginning'. After all these years, I know now that it always is.......